you love me, you just forget to care

the game we make of love

I like you
when you say my name
it never sound smug

I like you
when you touch me
folding me in your hug

I like you
when you listen to me
you never shrug


but

do i like
the lips
that breathes my name?

do i like
the shoulder
that i lean in

do i like
the ears
that receives my thoughts?

Do you not think so far ahead?

     All these strategically placed letters with occasional spaces in between, 
     I'm saving them for you.
     The way the letters complement each other, 
     the way the contour of the letter before supports the weight of the letter after without 
      overshadowing it, 
     the selfless way its there with no direct promise of victory,
     never insecure about the one that follows,
     sure and secure in the faith of the one in the middle,
     I find it beautiful. 
     That is how you make me.
     This is how I feel about you. 

They are scared of you.

Sometimes I feel like I'm better off not knowing. Better losing myself in oblivion.

Romola Garai, better than you. Always.

My perfect acting queen. She is full of talent that can't be contained in this universe. All of the awards. Always.

I am talking to myself here but it shall not matter

As it is palpable to anyone with a brain, I was aiming for a dramatic flair as my comeback. It worked, didn't it?

That Strange Feeling of Familiar

hi

did any of you, by any chance, missed me? Because I sure did.

Miss myself, that is. So, don't go all tender heart with me. You need your dignity, for that is all thats left of you.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

That was a terrible greeting, especially after a year long hiatus. But then again, I never said I wasn't a terrible person, now did I? No. I never did. You just assumed. You and your assumptions. One of these days, you should really try not assuming things and get the real truth out for goodness sake. I am sick, sick sick of all these lies. Lies that are buried under false pretense and crushed hopes. What is all this worthy of? Do you think I am that easy to fool? I may be insecure but my insecurities does not blind me from the truth. Don't you dare take me for anything more nor less. I am me, myself as I am.

I don't demand anything but the vile, ugly, innocent, naive truth. Fool me once, never twice.

I encourage YOU to follow MY lead

Holidays are ending soon which just makes me go 'Sucks. I practically did nothing during the holiday'. While I'm sure everyone is psyched up with the thought of going back to school, I'm not. I mean, sure it'll be great to see friends and chat around but HOMEWORKS? Thanks, but I'll pass. I'd rather spend my whole year lazing around in the house than go to school. I wish I could skip this last remaining year of high school and get on with college already. And while we're at it, let's skip SPM. God, even the thought of it. I pretty much flunked most of my subjects this year so I have no idea how I'm going to cope with it next year. Fingers crossed everyone.

We don't always get what we want, do we? Looks like Form 5's the path for me. (as if I have any other option)

I do nothing except for watching Glee repeatedly. I haven't seen 113 yet because I'd like to drag it out for as long as I can. The thought of waiting till April sickens me :'( Where am I going to get my daily dosage of the over-confident singing starlet who post a video each day on her myspace page and puts a star next to her name everytime. Pricelesssssss.

I'm still on a dilemma though as to being a Puckberry fan or a Rachinn. So I came up with an epiphany which is more like a solution : I'll be a Puckleberry Chinn fan! *do you notice the pun? It's from the classic Huckleberry Finn. Am I so brilliant or what?

I know everyone's hyped up on Puckberry. I loveeeeeeee Puck and Rachel. I think Puck is really reallly funny. God bless your badass-ness, Noah Puckerman. However, I'll always feel guilty watching Finn. He's just so dumb, he cracks me up. His expressions after swallowing that Vitamin D, epicly adorable.

Not to forget the baby name suggestion. Drizzle! Seriously, Finn. Can I marry you now? Not to mention his name is Finn which is like my favourite boy name. Thanks to Dona for reminding me this.




Okay, despite my gushing out on and on about Finn, he's not my favourite. Not even Rachel. It has got to be Kurt Hummel. His lines are so funny, you're forgiven for LOL-snorting at it.

Kurt : She even said that if I'd get caught talking to Mr. Shue's kids, she's gonna shave my head. And I can't rock that look. Even Justin Timberlake is growing his fro back.

Did I mentioned he's also gay? Come on, how wonderful is that. I wish he's my bestfriend. I badly want a gay bestfriend. They are the best. By gay, I mean, real gay. Not pretend gay.

E! listed Puckberry as their favourite couple along with some others like Jim and Pam, THE OFFICE; Tami and Eric Taylor, FNL in their TV Couples We Love. There's also a list for retro tv couples that has Liz and Michael from Roswell! I used to watch that show just for the both of them. (I so want to watch My So Called Life! It's considered epic, even) While we don't have the privilage of voting for TVs favourite couple on E!, we can do it for Portrait's Magazine Top Young TV Ships 2010 in favourite young couple. So go ahead and voteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Cappie and Casey from Greek are on both :-)

Blair and Chuck is number one with the Puckberry running close at 2nd. Watching GG S3 makes me really love Blair/Chuck. I think I prefer them in s3 than in s2. I love them without all that drama.

Remember how I commented that Zoe Saldana's acting wasn't that remarkable on Star Trek and that's why I think Anna Kendrick has to win the Best Supporting Actress spot? Well, I'm not going to take it back but I finally realise that Saldana's on the list not for Star Trek but (I guess) for Avatar. I keep getting flashbacks of Scott Porter everytime I see Sam Worthington on the screen. Do they even look alike? Anyway, here's a trailer of an upcoming movie starring the beautiful Saldana ;



Cool, right? Remember, you hear it from me.

One thing that I just can't get over with is that EW listed Jay Baruchel and Garrett Hedlund as top 10 to look out in 2010. I'm sorry but I've loved Garrett ever since Troy and Jay ever since 40 year old virgin. I am happy that they finally get their spotlight but I've loved them even before it. Garrett's just Body Wonderland while Jay's the cutest geek I've known after Cera.

There's tons of EW's Best of Decades list on the website, so make sure to check it out. I loved most of them but I'll never forgive them for that bad Catching Fire review.

Well, so longgggggggggggg. I'm off to watch TBL (which just makes me more depressing seeing as how thin the models are)

Now You Lift Your Eyes To The Sun

let me start by saying I am a helplessly lazy ass girl when it comes to holiday. Okay, no. I'm fibbing. I am generally a lazy ass girl which just shows my tendency to procascinate all the time. I can't remember who but there was this author who listed her job on twitter as world-class procascinator and I thought, wow. If there were such thing, I'd aced at it.

Anyway, as I was saying. I'm helpless during holidays. I do nothing but laze and lounge around in the house probably gaining an extra 5 kg which goes completely against my holiday resolution which is ironically, to LOSE 5 kg. Sad, yes. My life is.

I spent the first 2 week just screaming around at my brothers to clean up the house and please please just for god's sake, don't mess around when I just cleaned it up 5 minutes ago. And in that span of 2 weeks, my little brother came up with a lot of nicknames for me. Which I would not list out here because Im not one to dwell on the past. Plus, some of it still stings. *sighs dramatically*

two days before new moon came out, i ordered most of the tickets i could get for 5 days. I'm just obsessive like that. I know I know. Its such a bad thing to do. Others are trying to book the ticket and actually go to the cinema and get it. I just like to get my alternatives straight just in case someone came up to me and said hey lets watch new moon and i can say hey! I've got the tickets. Be prepared, its the best advice in life.

And guess, what? Someone did came up and asked me! I went to watch on the third day and we didn't even end up using the tickets I booked. HAHA. Well, there's always next time.

I have mixed feelings over the movie. AND YES, I was cursing when stupid dgnoego edhgo hod SAM ULEY came out. hfohgbog hohdhfoho. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU SAM ULEY FOR BREAKING LEAH'S HEART, IMPRINT OR NOT! I DON'T CARE!! e^@$#@$#^&^(*^*%#%^#

Back to New Moon.

The action could have been cooler. Come on, Chris Weitz. I've seen The Golden Compasses. What happened? But all in all, it's okay. I can't wait for Eclipse though. Don't cut Leah out of it, Melissa Rosenberg. (I think that's the screenwriter's name) LEAH IS THE BOMB and if you're wondering why I'm getting all worked up over her, it's because BETRAYAL disgust me. It's sickening. GOSH.

This week I nursed myself with high dosage of dvds. and 11 mangas. MUHUHHAHAHAHAH.

(Okay I know the statement does not call for an evil laugh but I'm just weird like that. Get over it)

I watched Lions For Lambs 4 times because its too inspirational for my own good. It makes me want to be a Senator. (that just reminds me of Senator Robert McCalister. I love you. Forever)

Alice Upside Down, Skins Season 3, One Tree Hill Season 1& 4, Eagle Eye, Seven Pounds, The Duchess and Hana Yori Dango are just a few of the dvds I watched this week.

I borrowed Hana Yori from my Japan-obsessed cousin. She's also the source for all the 11 mangas. The mangas just made me fall in love with Motomi Kyousuke all over. I love youu. And yes, I did some amateur sketching after marvelling over all those beautiful drawings but it's really really bad. I want wonder hands! :(

For the umpteenth time, I read Socrates In Love manga and cried like a baby. I want to read the actual novel which I think is going to be more heartbreaking and I'm in the mood of bawling my eyes out this holiday.

Speaking of which, I couldn't hold myself any longer and wait for my dad to print out Catching Fire so I just read the E-book. And just writing this is making me cry because I now, so so so badly want to hold it in my hands. Feel the paper, read the words from ink. I LOVE SUZANNE COLLINS. If she was right in front of me right now, I will grab her face and kiss her with all my might. I want to make everyone read The Hunger Games trilogy if I could. How can you not love it? I know most people gave it a chance because of that Stephenie Meyer blurb but I was more interested with the Stephen King's. Come on man. Stephen King loves the book. Stephen King, who already sold movie rights for his new book two weeks before its even out? COME ON. Catching Fire's suspense kills me. And the conclusion was way off my expectation. I can't believe it. And the Game was whoah. Intense.

I cried along reading this book and I know how everyone is crazy over Peeta but my heart's Gale since the first book. GALE GALE GALE. I want to do a fan page for Gale. I love Gale. Peeta's sweet too. I love him too. Gosh. This is the hardest thing. I can't make up my decision. They're both so so wonderful, in different ways. I guess Peeta's stronger but Gale, it's just. This is too painful. This is what Suzanne Collins have done to me. She has torn me apart.

You can ignore the last paragraph if you want if it doesn't make sense. Just so you know, I love The Hunger Games trilogy and you are missing out in life.

I dn't feel like blogging anymore. I want to read about Gale again. and again and again.

Let me end with this quote from OTH :

“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.
- Ayn Rand”

Vote For Your Choice!

Hi! Have you guys cast your votes for People's Choice Award yet? No? Dude? What the hell are you waiting for, World War 3? Go and vote. I love voting especially when its open to me ( in Malaysia) because there is a lot of awards where only U.S citizens are entitled to vote so once in a while when an opportunity like this jumps out, grab it! Grab it, hold on to it, squeeze it real tight. You get the idea already?

Okay. The point I'm asking you guys to vote is to persuade you to vote for my favourites. Hello, I need help here. At least I'm not doing it like Sam and Naomi did in the last Private Practice episode. Shame on them *shaking my head*

Back to voting. Ok, seriously. I won't object to every category you vote because it's a free country, right? I mean, you have your right to vote your own choice.

Who are you voting for in the Favourite Breakout Movie Actress category?



It has to be Anna Kendrick, right? I mean. Who else should win this category? Okay, maybe Ginnifer Goodwin is a VERY GOOD actress.


She was really convincing as obsessed Gigi in He's Just Not That Into You and I quite like her in Big Love. Oh yes. On a particular miserable day when nothing on television seems bearable to watch, I turned to Big Love because I mean, it was my last resort. At least I knew there was Chloe Sevigny so it wouldn't suck that much, right? Its surprisingly kind of intriguing although I have yet to agree on polygamy. It just seem all too wrong for me. And imagine my surprise when I saw Amanda Seyfried in it! Man, that girl is everywhere nowadays (Mamma Mia!, Jennifer's Body, Dear John) but Im not complaining. She deserves it especially after playing a character that thinks her boobs can tell the weather (in Mean Girls). That's simply disturbing.


-- Wait a minute.
Did I just got sidetracked, again? Shit. Why does this always happen to me? Come on! You don't see this happening to Maureen Johnson or Xiaxue for whats its worth right? Gawwd.

Ginnifer's good but I doubt she's a breakout actress. She's quite famous already. She was in Walk The Line.

I like Zoe Saldana. Don't get me wrong. I think she's real pretty but breakout actress? She doesnt really stand out in Star Trek.


I don't even want to talk about Emily Osment and Miley Cyrus.



Anywayyy, here's why I think everyone should vote for Anna Kendrick :

She is unbelieveably talented. Period.

You guys have seen Camp, right? Remember that movie with all that singing when we were 10 or 11? Yeah. Wasn't she just spectacular in it?


Did you saw Rocket Science? Hello? Who else could play that character besides her? She was a total lovely manipulative bitch.


And you've gotta admit, she was really good as whiny jealous Jessica in Twilight, right?

Plus, she's starring in a movie with George Clooney and based on reviews, she's stealing the limelight. Now, are you convinced? ( By the way, I really really want to watch the movie. It's called Up In The Air, directed by Jason Reitman who directed Juno so you know it's gonna be good and here's the trailer)




SO please please please vote for Anna Kendrick. She deserves it.


A category that left me hesitating was for Favourite Movie Actress.



I was torn apart over Jennifer Aniston, Drew Barrymore, Anne Hathaway and Sandra Bullock.

I really hugely love Jennifer Aniston, despite what others have been saying on her acting but I just can't. I love you Jen An but I have to go for Anne Hathaway. Drew's amazing too but I haven't seen Whip It yet so I can't be biased. As for Sandra, I love you, comedy queen. You will always be my comedy queen. Im sorry. It was a really tough decision. Why couldn't they just put Amy Adams on it? Id choose her anytime of the day. Speaking of, I just saw her new movie, Leap Year's trailer and despite the fact that it totally ruined the whole movie, I still want to see it.



((I at last decided to vote for all four of them)

Who are you thinking of voting for Favourite Movie Actress?

On a totally unrelated note, I saw Mermaid today and may I just say this, Christina Ricci is officially my favourite child actress. (although she's all grown up now)

Marc Johns is a genius.

Go and check him out. Seriously. Even Ashton Kutcher twittered about him.

Im Just Warming Up

I will not blog about freedom because really when you think about it, we are getting nearer to SPM and that ain't ever a good thing. Let's just get this over with, right?

I sincerely have no idea what to blog about which just ridicules me because that happens every time I end up on this page. You wouldve thought I'd plan out what to blog first but noooo, of course not. Atiqah believe ideas will just spring out of life. Well, jokes on you! Hah!

Is it wrong to be wanting to slap the Ridpest guy? Because he's here now and he's all bloody perky, I want to throw my flu-covered tissues at him! He goes like :

The guy : Adik cuti sekolah eh? Hehehe.
Me : Sabtu lah.
The guy : Oh ha'ah lah! Hari ni Sabtu! Hahahha.
Me : Heh.
The guy : Saya check dekat belakang eh? Boleh tak? Hehe.
Me : Okay.
The guy : Saya pergi dulu eh. Hehehe.

I swear to god. Don't you just wish you could strike his head with a candlestick?

Okay. R&R. Rephrase and Redirect. It's something from Anger Management. I learnt that in Sarah Dessen's Just Listen where the chracter Owen Armstrong has anger issue. He's the coolest, that Owen. So, see. You learn a lot of things just by reading.

Okay. Stop. I will not try and brainwash you guys to read. Stop.

A moment of silence please.

Master Yoga, do your thang.

And, we're back in 3, 2, 1! Action -

So who loves Adam Brody? Angkat bulu ketiak! If you aren't raising your arms ( or in this case your armpit's hair) You are in serious denial. Who doesn't love Adam Brody? Forget the fact that he's Jew. Except for Aiman of course. I get it Aiman. You dont strike me as gay. Maybe? Haha. Jk.

Doesn't this make you sad? :(

But STOP RIGHT THERE! It is not worth your life. Because I've seen Dianna Agron in Glee (Okay I admit I've only seen 2 episode but that's gonna change when NTV7 airs it! Whoop-de-doo) and she's totally adorable although I love Lea Michele better.




She's not head-turning-lighten-up-the-room kind of beautiful but she's cute and you know what I hate people who goes "She's nothing special" or "She's not that beautiful" because so what? You aren't that beautiful either. Beauty is skin deep, okay. So stop judging.

I don't like Angelina Jolie but I still think she's pretty because you know what? She is. That doesn't make me love her. But I'm not gonna lie either.


This is not going anywhere so I might as well just stop. So long. Farewell.

I've Always Wanted To Fall From The Sky

You!
Yes,
You.
Everyone.

Must.
Go.
And.
Watch

Its comedy genius! Frances McDormand was priceless as Miss Guinever Pettigrew. Her bluntness is to die for. Amy Adams as shallow and ditzy Delysia Lafosse was very convincing. I just absolutely marvel over the amazing screenplay which is written by Simon Buefoy! (he wrote the screenplay for slumdog millionaire)

Like this one for instance ;

Guinevere Pettigrew: "Four's a Crowd"'s a wonderful movie. Who were you?
Delysia Lafosse: The crowd.

but that's not even the best part. God, no. The best part is that Lee Pace (yes that one from Pushing Daisies) was in it! I was literally gaping at the screen when he appeared. He's so dreamy in this one. Trust me. It gives me the chills. and thrills.



Yep. You're right. Your vision did not tricked you. He's a pianist in this movie. How much dreamier can you get?

He's also in the upcoming movie, When In Rome. However, he plays a jerk in the movie. Oh well, you can't always be the hero now can you? The trailer is hilarious but don't watch it. Seriously. Do not click on it. It will just frustrate you more because you then have to wait until next year. Sigh.

Oh Oh Oh. Jennifer Garner a.k.a mlcc (my lesbian celebrity crush) new movie, The Invention of Lying's trailer is out and about! Woohoo. I really really love it. You have got to watch the trailer. Really. You can click on this one. Yep. Click on it. Isn't she so pretty? She's perfect. She's the epitome of perfection. To hell with you, Jolie.


I need my lunch. G'day everybody.

Guess Who's Back at Polyvore?

Bahaha. I have no idea what to do. I've played all the games at people.com. I wanted to edit my blog header but my brain is currently empty so I searched and searched and played with textures and walla, a set is produced. I hate how my sets are so messy. I need to organize it nicely but memang aku rajin ah kan sekarang? Bahahaha. I should be studying but yet here I am.

I missed True Blood. I need to get a life.

Is Everyone Here Make-Believe?

Err, Hi? I know I'm practically dead nowadays but hell with it. I blog when I want. (which is actually like never)

I don't have any kind of discrimination towards blogging. However, when it comes to me blogging, well, let's just put it this was : I have better things to do.

I do not know how to start. BLANK. BLANK.

BLANK.
BLANK.
BLANK.


I finally bought Lovestruck Summer by Melissa Walker. She's the first ever author to comment on my blog (this blog). Don't ask me how she found it. I have no idea. She even wished me happy birthday! God, was I thrilled. Anyway, Lovestruck Summer is about Quinn's journey staying at Austin with her crazy sorrority cousin while interning at a major indie label.






See, the thing with me is that I love reading books about music. I loved Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist. I especially love the music references. Belle and Sebastian was an amazing discovery. It was wonderful. I downloaded almost all of the songs featured in the book. Belle and Sebastian was an amazing discovery. I read Audrey, Wait!'s excerpt and I was practically jumping up and down when it mentioned Oasis's Don't Go Away. Its like a connection with the character. A bond that won't break. Music does that. So of course I'd want to read Lovestruck Summer.

I could connect with Quinn from the start. Quinn is like most of the teenagers I know.

--no this is not a review. I'm going somewhere with this.

You know that protective feeling you get when your favourite band-that-nobody-knows-about gets recognized and now everyone's ringtone is their song and you feel like f*ck them, I knew them first. Quinn's like that. Quinn hates those typical stereotype people who lists a band their favourite band just because of one song that aired on MTV. Quinn is a major indie die hard fan. She loathes country music. See, the thing with Austin is you get the best of both world ( I sound so Hannah Montana). Texas is of course the capital for country music and there's the indie world. Austin Music Fest is packed with indie bands.

Anyway, back to the book. Quinn's cousin's neighbour, Russ is the typical frat cowboy. Of course, being a cowboy who is also in fraternity, he likes country music. But here's the major twist, Russ loves all types of music. He embraces every one of it. Even covers. Quinn, being the stereotype complains, like all of us (including me) about how no one knew of her favourite band until it appears on MTV. I was with Quinn all the way. Hell yeah!

Until Russ gave a life altering (okay not exactly but you get my point right? ) speech (more like a conversation but then again)


Okay here's part of the conversation :
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Quinn : I know what I like. It's a certain type of music and I'm just not into stuff like bluegrass and banjos.

Russ : Music is music, Priscilla. (oh yeah, Russ calls Quinn by her first name) If you love music, you give it all a listen. You see what there is to learn in every song you hear. You take chances on shows. That's part of it.

Quinn : You think that manufactured pop countdown is music?

Russ : Lots of your indie bands end up on those charts, let's not forget.

Quinn : I know. And I hate that. I hate when annoying giggly girls know one song from a great band because it just happened to be on a movie soundtrack or something. They're totally co-opting the music and sellling out the sound.

Russ : Do you hear yourself? You sound like a conspiracy theorist. Who cares? If she likes the music, she likes the music. You don't own it. You can't tell people what to like -you can't control who likes the band you like.

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I don't know about you but while I was reading it, it was like a bell rang in my head. Ding! It's so so true. We are the typical stereotype. We judge people for what they like. We have no right yet we still do it. Then, we hate it when it happens to us. I know I am. I was majorly pissed when Mayday Parade's video clip was on MTV. I was like, 'oh no now everyone's going to find out about them'. The same goes with Story of The Year and Motion City Soundtrack. I wanted to keep them a secret. However, at the end of the day, it's not mine to keep. Its not mine.

Oh the book ended with Russ teaching Quinn about the beauty of universality in music.

The same goes with everything. Books, clothes, brands. It's a free world. So, as I'm trying to be more generous I'll share with you some of my current favourites like

Simone Elkeles's Perfect Chemistry.


Gosh. I want this book so bad. Since it was first published which was like what? December 2008? Grr. I've been waiting for Kinokuniya to carry this title. Grrr. They are finally carrying this title and can you believe my luck? It wasn't there when I went. God. I'm aching for this book. Somebody please sponsor me. Please please. It's only RM40.57. It has the best book tailer ever.

Even Meg Cabot bought a copy! Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Speaking of Meg Cabot, the new cover for the 3rd book in the airhead series is so gohjas. It's title is Runaway and this is the cover :



Gohjas gila. I'm regretting for not following this series. I am so going to read Airhead and Being Nikki now.

And a book to look forward to :



Fiona can be hard to get along with: she's a little prickly, clueless, opinionated, and unrelenting. When a course on marriage, a requirement for graduation, forces her to wed Todd, a male cheerleader, she is flabbergasted. They are the worst match on the planet, and she just knows this will be torture. To make matters worse, her best friend announces that she is in love with Fiona's lifelong crush, and that she finds Fiona too self-absorbed. Fiona is, of course, hurt, and left without a friend on whom she can rely. However, her senior year is also filled with hilarious situations. As she deals with her trials and tribulations, Fiona learns a great deal about herself and about how to interact with other people. While the book is laugh-out-loud funny in some places, it also gives readers time to pause and think about priorities, relationships, and making the most of trying situations

I can't wait for this one! Goshhhhhhhh.

Tunggu lah kau February 2010. Aku akan datang berlari.


Okay okay. I've got to go. Bye Bye.

Thou Shalt Not Forget Ze False Pretense

I've never been good with self confidence. I can't really put my fingers on WHY because I so do not want to crack my head figuring out why I have such a low self esteem.

I've read enough articles on self-help about your image to know that I'm not supposed to criticise myself but then again, what am I left to do? Humairah says I think too much. I don't know. But I do know this : it's one of the reason I don't blog that much lately as I'm afraid my writing sucks. (Okay, okay. My writing DO suck)

Since Aiman has been bugging me on and on about posting, I've decided that I will. But before you start glorifying over the fact that I'm posting this because of you, Aiman, let me state that I do plan on having a major comeback (this isn't as major as I think I was planning it to be) way back before you asked me to.

Oh and after a round-up survey I've finally realised that a post is more interesting with the presence of pictures --Okay, so it's not exactly a survey since I'm the only who thinks so -- but I find myself more interested with post that have images on it.

Then I figured, why the hell not? If Meg Cabot can do it, then so can I.

So off I went with this great determination to create a post filled with colourful images until suddenly my mind went blank...

WHAT KIND OF IMAGES SHOULD I UPLOAD MEHH?

HAH! TOTAL PARTY POOPER (oookay. random)


So... let me tell you about a website I'm currently addicted to -while it's not totally a new up and coming website-- I'm sure none of you ever thought of visiting it. Well, a lot of regret is coming your way, Huhn. Because this is totally shit stuff I tell you! And don't get me started on the hilarity of it all.

Have you always wanted to see the resemblance of Zac Efron with a dog?

Or the similarity between Michael Jackson and an egyptian statue?

Head down to www.totallylookslike.com and I bet you, you won't be dissapointed.

One post though really did impressed me. I don't know if this is a coincidence or not but really, what do you think?




Freaky, right? Awesome.

All this reminds me of a post Coco Rocha did on her blog where she blogged her resemblance with a, wait for it, wait for it...



Yep! ET! Haha. And to think Coco was really cool and aloof about that. Wow. She must have really high self confidence meh.

While I'm not high on self confidence I think its totally a major self esteem booster everytime I remind myself that I did a good job on choosing my celebrity crush.

I kind of feel bad for those who are crazy over RPatz because I mean, how do you sleep at night when you see this face looking back at you?

HAH! IN YOUR FACE.

At least I can indulge myself over this --

Which by the way, is the least attractive image I could find of him on the internet and that said, it's far far faaaaaaaaaaaar way better than RPatz.

I'd take this cannibalistic serial killer over Edward Cullen any time of the day.

Oh and he hangs out with Claudia Schiffer? Totally rufus. At least he's not spending time spoking pot like that ridiculous Rob.


I am off now

but you will find me within, smiling at my jewels and laughing at the world --


(the last sentence is from Ella Enchanted, my all time favourite book)

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let's just pretend that we are aiming higher and it's all for the better.

let's just stare at the mistake and wait till it break,

don't you now?

Me, I am the past and you are the present and She is the future.

I Thought You Knew How To Be Scared

I really love Sarah Dessen's books because her words are alway so true and totally quotable. The way she narrates a character, unbelieveably cool.


Recently, she did a contest. To enter, you must take a picture that reminds you of any scene in any of her book. Here are two of the images that I think is really really really amazing :



This is from The Truth About Forever



This is from Just Listen

This Envelope Will Represent My Heart

my favourite song since 2007 :)

I need to learn to play this on piano.

For Tonight You're Only Here to Know

I guess saying that I'm lazy is an understatement. I just don't have enough self will to go through all the things that I'm supposed to. I just love to laze around. I also always procastinate. Hell, I'm a world class procastinator. That said, you won't be surprised at how many homeworks I have delayed till the end. I frustrates myself sometimes. I want to bang my head on the wall for being so lazy. I do not know what to do. I'm just extremely lazy. What the eff? I mean, since I know my problem shouldn't I be finding ways to change it? TO over turn the problem? Oh I suck. I also almost always never finish what I start. Exhibit A : My Book Blog. I have tons of books to review but yet when I have all the time in the world, I do nothing. I suck. Gosh. I know that. I really do. I need to change, I know that too.


The thing is, I need someone who will scream at me. Who will force me to do all this. Who won't give up till I change. I need someone who will do that for me and who I love too much to hate despite the fact that said someone would be forcing me to do stuffs I hate to do. Where can I sign up to find that someone? Oh and if you're thinking I want this someone for romantic reasons you couldn't be more wrong. I just want someone 24/7 to tell me what to do. To make me want to be a better person.


Shit. I am totally not making sense here. I do not know why I just wrote that. I think it's prolly because I'm bored and everyone is offline meaning I can't annoy the crap out of them. Heh. I need to sleep. Or watch tv.

Anything.
I need to get away from the computer.
I need to be better.

Bye bye. Sleep tight. Okay, I suck.