so you tell me, has it always been worth it?

I could run at you right now, hold you tight, whisper it to your ears, promise you i'm never gonna leave again and we can be happily together forever. I could do that, I could but then I'd have to suffer silently all by myself, so I'd pass this chance even if it's one of a lifetime. I know you feel like you've wasted your tears all this while, well I'm not here to tell you you didn't because you did, for a girl like me? Gosh, how stupid can you be? I can be nice, I can even choose wether to hurt you or not, but honey trust me when I say, this is the best decision i've made. It's not because i let you suffer instead of me, because I know what you truly deserve and I don't even come close. Waiting for me is like waiting for the sun to turn green on a purple sky. It's never going to happen but yet there's still a little hope of seeing something as beautiful as that. It won't make you any better by saying you can bitch about me all you want and I won't mind. It's true I don't mind but if it satisfies you, I can't sleep at night, just thinking how the love you once gave to me turned into the hatred I can see burning through your eyes. Sorry is not being spit out of my throat, as much pity I have for you, I'm glad we ended up like this, just like it should always be. Maybe we're just stupid or you're too caught up with the moment, we'll never know now. What have been done cant be changed and what lies ahead, we can never know. You look at me right now, with a tiny glimpse of hope, I could, I couldn't. I would run at you right now, hold you tight, whisper it to your ears, promise you i'm never gonna leave again, but then again, I wouldn't.