I am talking to myself here but it shall not matter

As it is palpable to anyone with a brain, I was aiming for a dramatic flair as my comeback. It worked, didn't it?

That Strange Feeling of Familiar

hi

did any of you, by any chance, missed me? Because I sure did.

Miss myself, that is. So, don't go all tender heart with me. You need your dignity, for that is all thats left of you.

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That was a terrible greeting, especially after a year long hiatus. But then again, I never said I wasn't a terrible person, now did I? No. I never did. You just assumed. You and your assumptions. One of these days, you should really try not assuming things and get the real truth out for goodness sake. I am sick, sick sick of all these lies. Lies that are buried under false pretense and crushed hopes. What is all this worthy of? Do you think I am that easy to fool? I may be insecure but my insecurities does not blind me from the truth. Don't you dare take me for anything more nor less. I am me, myself as I am.

I don't demand anything but the vile, ugly, innocent, naive truth. Fool me once, never twice.

I encourage YOU to follow MY lead

Holidays are ending soon which just makes me go 'Sucks. I practically did nothing during the holiday'. While I'm sure everyone is psyched up with the thought of going back to school, I'm not. I mean, sure it'll be great to see friends and chat around but HOMEWORKS? Thanks, but I'll pass. I'd rather spend my whole year lazing around in the house than go to school. I wish I could skip this last remaining year of high school and get on with college already. And while we're at it, let's skip SPM. God, even the thought of it. I pretty much flunked most of my subjects this year so I have no idea how I'm going to cope with it next year. Fingers crossed everyone.

We don't always get what we want, do we? Looks like Form 5's the path for me. (as if I have any other option)

I do nothing except for watching Glee repeatedly. I haven't seen 113 yet because I'd like to drag it out for as long as I can. The thought of waiting till April sickens me :'( Where am I going to get my daily dosage of the over-confident singing starlet who post a video each day on her myspace page and puts a star next to her name everytime. Pricelesssssss.

I'm still on a dilemma though as to being a Puckberry fan or a Rachinn. So I came up with an epiphany which is more like a solution : I'll be a Puckleberry Chinn fan! *do you notice the pun? It's from the classic Huckleberry Finn. Am I so brilliant or what?

I know everyone's hyped up on Puckberry. I loveeeeeeee Puck and Rachel. I think Puck is really reallly funny. God bless your badass-ness, Noah Puckerman. However, I'll always feel guilty watching Finn. He's just so dumb, he cracks me up. His expressions after swallowing that Vitamin D, epicly adorable.

Not to forget the baby name suggestion. Drizzle! Seriously, Finn. Can I marry you now? Not to mention his name is Finn which is like my favourite boy name. Thanks to Dona for reminding me this.




Okay, despite my gushing out on and on about Finn, he's not my favourite. Not even Rachel. It has got to be Kurt Hummel. His lines are so funny, you're forgiven for LOL-snorting at it.

Kurt : She even said that if I'd get caught talking to Mr. Shue's kids, she's gonna shave my head. And I can't rock that look. Even Justin Timberlake is growing his fro back.

Did I mentioned he's also gay? Come on, how wonderful is that. I wish he's my bestfriend. I badly want a gay bestfriend. They are the best. By gay, I mean, real gay. Not pretend gay.

E! listed Puckberry as their favourite couple along with some others like Jim and Pam, THE OFFICE; Tami and Eric Taylor, FNL in their TV Couples We Love. There's also a list for retro tv couples that has Liz and Michael from Roswell! I used to watch that show just for the both of them. (I so want to watch My So Called Life! It's considered epic, even) While we don't have the privilage of voting for TVs favourite couple on E!, we can do it for Portrait's Magazine Top Young TV Ships 2010 in favourite young couple. So go ahead and voteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Cappie and Casey from Greek are on both :-)

Blair and Chuck is number one with the Puckberry running close at 2nd. Watching GG S3 makes me really love Blair/Chuck. I think I prefer them in s3 than in s2. I love them without all that drama.

Remember how I commented that Zoe Saldana's acting wasn't that remarkable on Star Trek and that's why I think Anna Kendrick has to win the Best Supporting Actress spot? Well, I'm not going to take it back but I finally realise that Saldana's on the list not for Star Trek but (I guess) for Avatar. I keep getting flashbacks of Scott Porter everytime I see Sam Worthington on the screen. Do they even look alike? Anyway, here's a trailer of an upcoming movie starring the beautiful Saldana ;



Cool, right? Remember, you hear it from me.

One thing that I just can't get over with is that EW listed Jay Baruchel and Garrett Hedlund as top 10 to look out in 2010. I'm sorry but I've loved Garrett ever since Troy and Jay ever since 40 year old virgin. I am happy that they finally get their spotlight but I've loved them even before it. Garrett's just Body Wonderland while Jay's the cutest geek I've known after Cera.

There's tons of EW's Best of Decades list on the website, so make sure to check it out. I loved most of them but I'll never forgive them for that bad Catching Fire review.

Well, so longgggggggggggg. I'm off to watch TBL (which just makes me more depressing seeing as how thin the models are)

Now You Lift Your Eyes To The Sun

let me start by saying I am a helplessly lazy ass girl when it comes to holiday. Okay, no. I'm fibbing. I am generally a lazy ass girl which just shows my tendency to procascinate all the time. I can't remember who but there was this author who listed her job on twitter as world-class procascinator and I thought, wow. If there were such thing, I'd aced at it.

Anyway, as I was saying. I'm helpless during holidays. I do nothing but laze and lounge around in the house probably gaining an extra 5 kg which goes completely against my holiday resolution which is ironically, to LOSE 5 kg. Sad, yes. My life is.

I spent the first 2 week just screaming around at my brothers to clean up the house and please please just for god's sake, don't mess around when I just cleaned it up 5 minutes ago. And in that span of 2 weeks, my little brother came up with a lot of nicknames for me. Which I would not list out here because Im not one to dwell on the past. Plus, some of it still stings. *sighs dramatically*

two days before new moon came out, i ordered most of the tickets i could get for 5 days. I'm just obsessive like that. I know I know. Its such a bad thing to do. Others are trying to book the ticket and actually go to the cinema and get it. I just like to get my alternatives straight just in case someone came up to me and said hey lets watch new moon and i can say hey! I've got the tickets. Be prepared, its the best advice in life.

And guess, what? Someone did came up and asked me! I went to watch on the third day and we didn't even end up using the tickets I booked. HAHA. Well, there's always next time.

I have mixed feelings over the movie. AND YES, I was cursing when stupid dgnoego edhgo hod SAM ULEY came out. hfohgbog hohdhfoho. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU SAM ULEY FOR BREAKING LEAH'S HEART, IMPRINT OR NOT! I DON'T CARE!! e^@$#@$#^&^(*^*%#%^#

Back to New Moon.

The action could have been cooler. Come on, Chris Weitz. I've seen The Golden Compasses. What happened? But all in all, it's okay. I can't wait for Eclipse though. Don't cut Leah out of it, Melissa Rosenberg. (I think that's the screenwriter's name) LEAH IS THE BOMB and if you're wondering why I'm getting all worked up over her, it's because BETRAYAL disgust me. It's sickening. GOSH.

This week I nursed myself with high dosage of dvds. and 11 mangas. MUHUHHAHAHAHAH.

(Okay I know the statement does not call for an evil laugh but I'm just weird like that. Get over it)

I watched Lions For Lambs 4 times because its too inspirational for my own good. It makes me want to be a Senator. (that just reminds me of Senator Robert McCalister. I love you. Forever)

Alice Upside Down, Skins Season 3, One Tree Hill Season 1& 4, Eagle Eye, Seven Pounds, The Duchess and Hana Yori Dango are just a few of the dvds I watched this week.

I borrowed Hana Yori from my Japan-obsessed cousin. She's also the source for all the 11 mangas. The mangas just made me fall in love with Motomi Kyousuke all over. I love youu. And yes, I did some amateur sketching after marvelling over all those beautiful drawings but it's really really bad. I want wonder hands! :(

For the umpteenth time, I read Socrates In Love manga and cried like a baby. I want to read the actual novel which I think is going to be more heartbreaking and I'm in the mood of bawling my eyes out this holiday.

Speaking of which, I couldn't hold myself any longer and wait for my dad to print out Catching Fire so I just read the E-book. And just writing this is making me cry because I now, so so so badly want to hold it in my hands. Feel the paper, read the words from ink. I LOVE SUZANNE COLLINS. If she was right in front of me right now, I will grab her face and kiss her with all my might. I want to make everyone read The Hunger Games trilogy if I could. How can you not love it? I know most people gave it a chance because of that Stephenie Meyer blurb but I was more interested with the Stephen King's. Come on man. Stephen King loves the book. Stephen King, who already sold movie rights for his new book two weeks before its even out? COME ON. Catching Fire's suspense kills me. And the conclusion was way off my expectation. I can't believe it. And the Game was whoah. Intense.

I cried along reading this book and I know how everyone is crazy over Peeta but my heart's Gale since the first book. GALE GALE GALE. I want to do a fan page for Gale. I love Gale. Peeta's sweet too. I love him too. Gosh. This is the hardest thing. I can't make up my decision. They're both so so wonderful, in different ways. I guess Peeta's stronger but Gale, it's just. This is too painful. This is what Suzanne Collins have done to me. She has torn me apart.

You can ignore the last paragraph if you want if it doesn't make sense. Just so you know, I love The Hunger Games trilogy and you are missing out in life.

I dn't feel like blogging anymore. I want to read about Gale again. and again and again.

Let me end with this quote from OTH :

“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.
- Ayn Rand”

Vote For Your Choice!

Hi! Have you guys cast your votes for People's Choice Award yet? No? Dude? What the hell are you waiting for, World War 3? Go and vote. I love voting especially when its open to me ( in Malaysia) because there is a lot of awards where only U.S citizens are entitled to vote so once in a while when an opportunity like this jumps out, grab it! Grab it, hold on to it, squeeze it real tight. You get the idea already?

Okay. The point I'm asking you guys to vote is to persuade you to vote for my favourites. Hello, I need help here. At least I'm not doing it like Sam and Naomi did in the last Private Practice episode. Shame on them *shaking my head*

Back to voting. Ok, seriously. I won't object to every category you vote because it's a free country, right? I mean, you have your right to vote your own choice.

Who are you voting for in the Favourite Breakout Movie Actress category?



It has to be Anna Kendrick, right? I mean. Who else should win this category? Okay, maybe Ginnifer Goodwin is a VERY GOOD actress.


She was really convincing as obsessed Gigi in He's Just Not That Into You and I quite like her in Big Love. Oh yes. On a particular miserable day when nothing on television seems bearable to watch, I turned to Big Love because I mean, it was my last resort. At least I knew there was Chloe Sevigny so it wouldn't suck that much, right? Its surprisingly kind of intriguing although I have yet to agree on polygamy. It just seem all too wrong for me. And imagine my surprise when I saw Amanda Seyfried in it! Man, that girl is everywhere nowadays (Mamma Mia!, Jennifer's Body, Dear John) but Im not complaining. She deserves it especially after playing a character that thinks her boobs can tell the weather (in Mean Girls). That's simply disturbing.


-- Wait a minute.
Did I just got sidetracked, again? Shit. Why does this always happen to me? Come on! You don't see this happening to Maureen Johnson or Xiaxue for whats its worth right? Gawwd.

Ginnifer's good but I doubt she's a breakout actress. She's quite famous already. She was in Walk The Line.

I like Zoe Saldana. Don't get me wrong. I think she's real pretty but breakout actress? She doesnt really stand out in Star Trek.


I don't even want to talk about Emily Osment and Miley Cyrus.



Anywayyy, here's why I think everyone should vote for Anna Kendrick :

She is unbelieveably talented. Period.

You guys have seen Camp, right? Remember that movie with all that singing when we were 10 or 11? Yeah. Wasn't she just spectacular in it?


Did you saw Rocket Science? Hello? Who else could play that character besides her? She was a total lovely manipulative bitch.


And you've gotta admit, she was really good as whiny jealous Jessica in Twilight, right?

Plus, she's starring in a movie with George Clooney and based on reviews, she's stealing the limelight. Now, are you convinced? ( By the way, I really really want to watch the movie. It's called Up In The Air, directed by Jason Reitman who directed Juno so you know it's gonna be good and here's the trailer)




SO please please please vote for Anna Kendrick. She deserves it.


A category that left me hesitating was for Favourite Movie Actress.



I was torn apart over Jennifer Aniston, Drew Barrymore, Anne Hathaway and Sandra Bullock.

I really hugely love Jennifer Aniston, despite what others have been saying on her acting but I just can't. I love you Jen An but I have to go for Anne Hathaway. Drew's amazing too but I haven't seen Whip It yet so I can't be biased. As for Sandra, I love you, comedy queen. You will always be my comedy queen. Im sorry. It was a really tough decision. Why couldn't they just put Amy Adams on it? Id choose her anytime of the day. Speaking of, I just saw her new movie, Leap Year's trailer and despite the fact that it totally ruined the whole movie, I still want to see it.



((I at last decided to vote for all four of them)

Who are you thinking of voting for Favourite Movie Actress?

On a totally unrelated note, I saw Mermaid today and may I just say this, Christina Ricci is officially my favourite child actress. (although she's all grown up now)