Tuesday, March 18, 2008

at the edge of breakdown

1213 am, i'm officially bored. I feel like pee-ing but Im afraid to go to the toilet alone, esp lately because there's cockroaches (sometimes). I finally get hold of editing my bloody blog, yet I'm still not satisfied. I viewed Fatin and Qeyla's blog and my eyes was green of envy. GAHHHHHHHH. I'm not sure should I go to school today? I'm hesitating.My dad's not around, and I dont feel like going, but AHHHH.. I told Cipah Im going and then stop by at her house and watch Kevin Cheng (whoever he is) I think I will, go to school i mean. I am so pissed off right now, dont ask me why? hahahahhahaa. Is it just me or do I really sound pathetic? Ok, hold on for 5 minutes. I'm going upstairs, pee-ing. :)

Im back, haha like you even noticed me gone. You know, I was thinking, why was I desperate to pee? As I recall, i didnt drank that much, did I? What do you think? OH... Bugger off. From how Im sounding right now, I should've been locked up in an asylum. What would you know anyway?

You know what's on the bck of my head right now? the movie A GOOD YEAR, stars Russel Crowe. I kept thinking about it, I love that movie. It's something to do with finding something you'd cherish the rest of your life, and take risks for it. Not something I would do, I'm a big time fat ass coward. As some might have already mention in their blog (i'm not saying names)


Did you know, everytime I write an essay, I'd always get wrong on spelling "Their", I spell it as thier. Im terribly careless. Seriously, if I checked on my math paper that day, Id probably get an A instead of 78% GRHhh. No point of regretting, you can't turn back time. Just learn from the mistake, and don't repeat it again and again. Yeah, keep telling yourself that. IF it was me, i wouldnt even do it, I don't have a strong willpower.


Guess what? Im chatting with someone from Holland. I dont know wether its a she/he. She/he suddenly said "
hoi ben jij roel>" and when I said I dont understand that, we kind of get to know each other. She/he just asks me do I know where Holland is? Quick! anybody? where is it? HAHAHA. okay, it's near belgium france germany. Lol, this person is fun, oh well. she/he is 17. This is getting interesting. So long, I'm off to chatting with whoever saskia765@hotmail.com is byeeeeeeeeee.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

bosan ke tak hah?







i found a good website to get over boredom - celebrityhookups.wordpress.com

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Film Quotes

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

-Coach Carter

I have to say that when you come across someone like that you just want to grab them tight so they can't get away.

-Take a girl like you

All stories, even the ones we love, must eventually come to an end and when they do, it's only an opportunity for another story to begin.

-Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium

But you know the thing about romance is people only get together right at the very end.

-Love Actually.


I want to see my best friend's big sister, the girls from the soccer team, my next door neighbor, real women who are smart and pretty and happy to be who they are. These are the women to look up to. Let's put life back into the magazine. And fun and laughter and silliness. I think we all - I think all of us - want to feel something that we've forgotten or turned our backs on because maybe we didn't realize how much we were leaving behind. We need to remember what used to be good. If we don't, we won't recognize it even if it hits us between the eyes.

-13 going on 30

Dear Leonard. To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to know it, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away. Leonard, always the years between us, always the years. Always the love. Always the hours.

I remember one morning getting up at dawn, there was such a sense of possibility. You know, that feeling? And I remember thinking to myself: So, this is the beginning of happiness. This is where it starts. And of course there will always be more. It never occurred to me it wasn't the beginning. It was happiness. It was the moment. Right then.

-The Hours


It is a truth universally acknowledged that when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces.

- Bridget Jones Diary

Classic Lits.

GAWD. . Holidays are supposed to be time for relaxing, but not in my case. Definitely not in mine. I feel more exhausted during holidays rather than during schooldays, which is pretty weird because all I ever do on holidays is sleep. Oh well, that and of course the obvious reading, watching tv and going online. Nothing interesting has yet to happen this holiday. I don't get why I'm calling this break holiday since it's just a week break. You would have thought that the Ministry of Education would need some time off after a big political voting day which has just passed yesterday. The results were, I don't know. Quite shocking since BN lost 4 states. Ohhh and I can't actually believe that Izzah won the Lembah Pantai seat. I mean, PKR for Bangsar? that's the city,fgs. Anyway, I don't really mind about it, since Malaysia is a democratic country. Whatever happen, happens. Ok, that's enough about Politics. If you want to know further about it, may I suggest you to read the newspaper because they did a pretty big coverage about it. Oh well, this is our country.

What I have been doing lately isn't interesting enough to share. (I have a huge zit on my face, gahhhhhhh period zit) Ok, thats definitely off topic. Neways, Im now addicted to Classis Lit. I saw Pride and prejudice that day, the one which stars Keira Knightley and that hotty MATTHEW MCFADYEN :D i couldnt asked for a better Mr. Darcy. I have a crush on Mr. Darcy since the first time I read Jane Austen's novel which is when I was 11 (my mother loves to pursue me in reading all her teenage books), though I would never admit it to my mother, I'd have daydreams about my own Mr.Darcy the exact minute I read the first line about Fitzwilliam Darcy. While I was watching that movie, I suddenly noticed that the scripts were quite the same with the book, which is rather surprising since most movies, that adapts from a book, their scripts are often changed into something somewhat more interesting or more understandable-not that Jane's languange isnt understandable-. I cant seem to get hold of the words Mr Darcy said on the subject of Lizzie "She is tolerable, but not handsome enough to tempt me" arggghh. I feel like strangling him right at that moment. I have to disagree with the fact that Colin Firth's portrayal as Mr Darcy is the best, that I have to give to the ever stunning hottie Matthew =D I was ever so tempted to re-read Jane's novel, that I began to search for it online. I came across a very very generous website, www.site.girlebooks.com which provides you with classics. I am proud to say I have read some, like Wuthering Heights, The secret Garden, Heidi, Little Women and a few.

Oh well, I'm signing off with just a tiny thing to say; I cant wait for our O.C Marathon Fatin Najwa bt Idris :)

Sunday, March 2, 2008

stop messing with my fragile heart

so you blew me off because you love me nomore?
did you forget the time you took my hand
or hopefully for you that was all pretend
I can't remember your birthday
but you keep saying it's okay
i cried that day, because I thought youd get mad
you just look into my eyes, and you said "Baby, don't be sad"

The touch of your skin, as soon as our lips met,
My whole body seems to fail throughly
I held on to you like youre the last thing on earth,
because if I let go, everything would fall into pieces.

so you move on a week after that?
You touch another girl, you kiss another girl,
you took her hand, and say everything's alright
you give her the world, and I wonder
would you leave her in pieces one week after?
boys are oblivious to the fact that girls would fall hopelessly in love with just one touch, you break a girls heart, and you think they would move on after 5 minutes? even Mia Hamm cant do that, we are girls. we are fragile, learn how to take care of us, or you just quit messing with our heart.