Update ; It's Too Late.

If there's one thing I've learnt in life, its that everything can fall apart the next day.

SIMONA MCINTYRE

Its Coming Near and This War Is Ours

All the what ifs are visiting my messed up mind. Okay, on a different subject( yes, Im avoiding that 'thing') Im going to my dad's company vacation tomorrow. Well, sorda. Only 3 family is joining, I think? Whatevs lah.


I am on this create post page for about 20 minutes without writing anything. Yes, that's how clueless I am about what to blog.

Visited Storm's Management web today. Emma Watson recently joined them. YEY! It's my favourite out of all. Alexa Chung is with them too. I know, RIGHT? (if you have no idea what I'm talking about, please ignore)

Titanic is on TV but I wont even bother watching it. After all, I do have the cd and its the uncutted version! Haha. Kind of yucky but its actually one of the major plots in the story.


Coco Rocha is now a redhead, but you won't be seeing it officially until in Vogue's Jan since they bought the right for it. I've just found out recently. This is what happens when I don't visit Mostly Model. I'll be sure to tell Eric about this. I know how redheads makes him weak on the knees.

I feel like..

10 Things I Hate About You! Yipeeee! Don't you just love Karen Mccullah Lutz? Because I absolutely do. And not only that, The Taming of The Shrew is my favourite of Shakespeare's work. Merchant of Venice being the second followed by A Midsummer's Night Dream.

and so to end this post, here's a quote I memorized by heart and keep repeating everytime I watch the movie;


Patrick: Some asshole paid me to take out this really great girl.

Kat Stratford: Is that right?

Patrick: Yeah, but I screwed up. I, um, I fell for her.


Drink Waterpakk,
TIQA

Life Is Nothing If We Don't Fall

I hate Keira but I love this :D Richard Curtis rockssssssss!





Because of my low self esteem, I feel like bragging







Strauss is a gift herself.

I've been out of the spotlight way too long. Im sure ya'll miss me terribly. But it's okay, you are my survival. Now let me here you say. can't imagine, life without your love. Even forever, don't seem like long enough. - I need to get my own lines- Anyway, how have yaaaaaaa been? I am now oficially a victim of insomnia. I'm sleep deprived! ARGHHHHH. On the other hand, not sleeping gives me enough time to go online in the morning now that my father is bringing back his laptop again. I feel like waiting the computer to be fixed will only happen when the sun turns red on a green sky. Totally impossible.

A few more days till New Year. I'll soon be posting the last post for 2008. Gosh, can't believe how fast time flies. I just want to stay right here, writing this post because I don't think I'm ready for any change to come. I've had my share of surprises these past two years. Please, can't anything go back to normal now?


OH GOD. I have absolutely nothing to blog about. Which is kind of sad, to think about. I'm sure all the teachers who complained to my mother about my talkativeness would be dissapointed. I'm sorry I've failed. I am a failure. Commemorate that. Seriously, I hate reminding myself so just please, do it, okay? For me.

I do not know what crap I'm talking about but you people can tolerate crap, don't you? I have faith in you guys. Do not crush my hopes. I have no bloody idea for a set in polyvore which is why my sets are like so stupid. I used to hate sets like that. I mean, seriously. All I do is take a nice picture and add textures in it. Bapak senang kan? I want to do something more extreme like Zacarata's. She's my current favourite.

Anna Nalick, can you lend me your talent? So that I can soar above and undertake this world, which is by the way what you should totally do because I swear you don't have to shake your booty in order to be standing next to Mariah Carey.


Okay okay. I will stop now before your brain gets too crammed up with stuffs you don't even get.


click below ;


Let Us All Falter With Pretty Things



Wat,wat,wateeeeeeeepak,

TIQA

Took This From Hertina

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
that jerk in the mall.

What kind of car do you drive?
I'll drive any car with a chauffeur in it

Have you ever had a garage sale?
yerp.

What color is your iPod?
what makes u think I have one?

What kind of dog do you have?
I can't because of my religion but I think bulldogs are cute. Their sad puppy face is to die for!

What's for dinner tonight?
Pizza

What is the last drink you drank?
Pomegranate juice.


Last time you were sick?
Oh god. That most agonizing days while I was fasting.

How long is your hair?
Dunno, I don't really care. But my fringe is LONGGGGGGGGGGGGG :D

Are you happy right now?
BECAUSE MY FRINGE IS LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

What did you say last?
so whats your point?

Who came over last?
Mariaaaaaaah.

Do you drink beer?
Nope.

Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
haha, my mother said that she found me under a cow and decided to take me home.

What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
Mummy's Keychain.

What is in your pocket?
gummybears

Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend?
who says I have one?

Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with?
Daddy

What DVD is in your DVD player?
Erh? House Bunny kot

What's something fun you did today?
everything is fun with my lovely girls (:

What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"?
Rawrr haha

What are you listening to right now?
Aimee Mann babyyyy.

What have you had to drink so far today?
that stupid healthy drink Hoomy bought, Robbie's influence haha

When is your birthday?
01061993

What's the area code for your cell phone?
I have no idea.

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
Cikgu Mona, haha.

Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror?
me no have one

How many states in the U.S. have you been to?
never been there but NYC LOVE YOU.

What are you going to do after this?
erh, play psp?

What is something you need to go shopping for?
The sequined top!

Do you like pickles?
depends.

How about olives?
with bread, sure.

What is your favorite kind of gum?
Strawberry all over.

Do you have any tan lines?
HAHA How can I when I have such a dark complexion.

Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher?
I remember the headmistress's! Doesnt that count?

Who was the last person to call you baby?
that asshole jerk in the mall. Middle finger ah wey.

When you're at the grocery store do you used the self checkout?
Sometimes.

Has anyone ever sang to you?
Yes, and I hated it.

Has anyone ever given you roses?
Babi betul siapa yang bagi.

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Hopefully.

What is your favorite color?
Red, Black.

What color are your eyes?
blackieee

What is a compliment you receive way too often?
"You don't look 15" is a compliment ke?

How tall are you?
short. Just you wait, Moss. I will be taller than you. MARK MY WORDS!

Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
Jay, just now.

Do you like your parents?
yeah.

Why did your last relationship end?
because of my need of presents. HAHA

Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
Haziq

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
I have no idea. The furthest scandinavian country lah.

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
mia dada.

How long does it take you to shower?
10 mins top.

Can you do splits?
used toooooo :(

Can you use the grill?
Is a 'Duhh' to arrogant?

Are you flexible?
used to be but since Ive gotten fatter kan.

What movie do you want to see?
I am waiting for COnfession of a Shopaholic next Feb.

What did you on New Years Eve 2007?
Family dinner.

Was your mom a cheerleader?
Hahahahhaa. She's more the Beta type.

What is the last letter of your middle name?
HHHHHHHH.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Only 5, how sad right?

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
the first thing I do.

Are you scared of flying?
haha no fear of height.

What do you sleep in?
anything comfy.

Do you have any tatoos?
nahhh.

Have you ever been to Los Angeles?
No. Screw you, FATIN!

What jewelry do you wear all the time?
not a jewelry girl.

What is your favorite song at the moment?
Probably Ultraviolet. *that fireeeeeeee you ignited..*

What song do you HATE?
that annoying T.I song.

Do you like chocolate?
YES YES! *jumps up and down*

Are you easy to get along with?
no.

Any up coming events you're excited about?
christmas dinner. PRESENTSSSSSSSSSS :)



SORRY FOR ALL THE SURVEY. I'LL UPDATE SOON. (be patient, Marie. HAHA)

Because Life Is..

..So much better when you have friends, who lets you know they're there and will catch you when you fall.



and in the circle she's making, I will always revolve. Ultraviolet.

A Useful Survey..

..that helps you NOT to get kicked out of the country.

British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[x] You know what a brolly is.
[] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x]Fish and Chips are yummy
[x] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[x] Its football.. not soccer.
Total = 6


Australian
[x] You wear flip flops all year
[] You call flip flops thongs not flip flops
[] You love a ... ... backyard ... barbie.
[] You ... ... know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[] You're a sports fanatic.
[] You are tanned.
[] You're a bit of a bogan.
[] You have an australian something
Total = 3

Italian
[] The Sopranos is a great show.
[x] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother or mother makes her own sauces.
[] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[x] You know Italian songs.
[x]You have darkish hair.
[] You speak SOME italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''.
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world.
[x] You talk with your hands
Total = 7

Spanish
[] You say member instead of remember.
[] You speak spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[x] You know what a Puta is
[x] You talk fast.
[] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[] You know what platanos are.
[x] You've said Te Amo or Te Quiero
Total = 4

Russian
[] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[] You have more than one vodka bottle in your house
[] You know the difference between channel 1 and rtvi
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[] You dont get cold easily.
[] You get into contests all the time.
[] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
[] You love listening to trance
Total = 1

Polish
[] Your parents let you drink
[] You know what a pizda is
[] You have Pierogi at least once a week
[] People always ask to see your "kielbasa" checking if your Polish
[x] People randomly call you their best friend
[] You have made/know what pisanki are
[]You laughed when Poland beat the USA in the 2002 world cup
Total = 1

Irish
[] You think beer is the best.
[] You have a bad temper.
[] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a y, on, un, an,en, in, ry, ly.
[] You have blue or green eyes.
[] You like the color green.
[] You have been to a St. Pattys day party.
[] You have a family member from Ireland.
[] You have/had freckles.
[] Your family get togethers always include drinking.
[x] You have an odd love of leprechauns
[] You have four leaf clovers
Total = 1

African American
[] You say nigga/nukka casually.
[] You have/had nappy hair
[] You like rap music
[x] You like chicken
[x] You like watermelon.[stereotype!]
[] You can ‘sing’ gospel.
[] You smoke(d) newports
[x] You know what a Booty Call is
[] Your sick at basketball
Total = 3


Asian
[] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[x] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[] Most people think you're chinese.
[] You have glasses/contacts.
[] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[] You go to Baulko.
[] You play Handball more than once a week
[x] You know what DDR is
Total = 5

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think American Chocolate is good.
[]You Speak some German.
[] You know what Schnitzel is.
[] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[]You're over 5'10".
[] You know the real meaning of "Fag".
[] You make pretty words sound scary.
[] You enjoy watching the military.
[x] You know that GUMMY BEARS were invented in Germany.
Total = 4

Canadian
[] You like to ride 4 wheelers.
[] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[] You know what poutine is.
[] You speak some french
[] You love Tim Horton's.
[] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[x] You watch/watched degrassi.
[] You play/ played hockey or watch it.
[x] You've NEVER been ass whooped by your parents.
[x] You know who Massari is.
Total = 4

French
[x] You like french toast.
[] You love wine.
[] You speak a little or are fluent in french
[] You have eaten a snail.
[] You like fashion.
[] You have been to France
[x] You are either a Catholic, a Muslim, a Protestant or a Jew.
[] You say "Zut" instead of damn
[] You own a beret.
[x] You actually know what a beret is.
Total = 3

American
[] You hate foreigners.
[] You hate non - Christians.
[x] You've been to more then 5 states.
[x] You're lazy.
[] You are not cultured.
[x] You hate abortions.
[] But love the death penalty.
[] You don't read.
[] You shop at walmart.
[x] You say restroom instead of washroom.
[] You spell colour "color".
Total = 4

Greek
[x] You're very loud.
[] Your family alone makes a small city.
[] You blast music Saturday morning to clean the house.
[] You share a bathroom with 5 people.
[] You say "open the light" instead of "turn on the light".
[] Your parents came into this country illegally.
[] Your parents still don't have their Green Card after 15 years in the U.S.
[] You go to church every Sunday.
[] You always have a "to go plate" when leaving from a party.
[] You have a last name thats hard to pronounce.
[x] You eat potatoes with the skin ON it.
Total = 2

Brown (Indian, Guyanese, etc)
[x] You know who Shahrukh Khan and Hrithik Roshan are.
[x] You get crazy over hollywood actors and actresses!
[x] You know what the movie Dhoom 2 is.
[] You can eat really good spicy food!
[x] You have lots and LOTS of spices at your home.
[] You came or live in Toronto and have been to Gerrard St.
[] You have any sort of ATN channel.
[x] You know what either koothi, kootha, or banchod is.
[x] You love eating Tandoori Chicken.
[x] You have relatives you've never even heard of.
Total = 7

EGYPTIAN :
[] You are smart in math or science
[] Your mom or dad are either doctors or enginners.
[] All you eat is kabab and kofta
[] Your parents have one car thats a toyata
[x] Your house actually does not smell like food
[] You have like 67890 middle names
Total = 1

Native
[] You have been to a pow wow
[] You have a native name
[] You are more than a quater native
[] You know what tribe you are in
[] You have painted your face like a warior
[x] You have been to a native exhibit out of school
[]You play lacrosse
[x] You have eaten salmon
total = 2

Scottish
[x] You can tell the difference between a Scottish & Irish accent
[] one of your family members has an accent
[x] you actually don't mind bagpipes
[x] scottish recipes are in your household somewhere
[x] you've heard the song "scotland the brave"
[] no matter what, there will ALWAYS be whiskey at family gatherings
[] any team playing england is your best friend
[] you have tried haggas
[x] sean connery lol
[] you drink tap water
[x] you know Edinburgh is pronounce "Edin-buura"
total = 6



So I am more Australian, Italian, Brown and Scottish than I am as an Asian.

Hah, guess now I know where to go if I got bored of Malaysia.

I'm pretty bummed out that I didnt get to be Irish. I've always wanted to be Irish. Me Mcloving the McIrish's :D


Oh well, Better off.
Waterpak,
TIQA

Way To Go, Captain Obvious.

Tom and Jerry by ChicLaTique




I love my sets! haha I'm so bragging


I am using the maxis broadband and its surprisingly fast which confuses me because trust me, My imaginary pet snail used to be faster than it. I've learnt to appreciate it while I can so I shall blog today.


My house is only alive after 8 pm on Weekdays. Seriously? Seriously. Its the movie of Walking Dead on the afternoons and evenings. Which is why you'll find me wide awake at 5 am. While I've been away from blogging, I set a new record. Its an achievement for me so don't expect it to qualify for Guiness World Record. Anyway, ask me what the record is? Askkkkkkkkkkk. Ask. Ask! Oh, well. If you insist. I created a record of reading 3 books (over 700 pages added up) in 7 hours! You can do better? Pfft. So what?

Moving on..

I am now a follower for the Canadian tv show Blood Ties. I discovered it in purely coincidential circumstances and remembered a review on Star not long ago so decided to give it a go. Its kind of okay, although I stil have to get used with the fangs and hissings. Its kinda slow and the Love-Hate relationship between Henry and Vicki pisses me off. I mean, hook up already! So, its not entirely perfect but then what is?


Speaking of perfect, Arain texted me yesterday to let me know that he found the Bros and Sis's dvd but didnt bought it since he couldnt recall which season I wanted. I'm like, Duhh? Season 2 of course. I have just been gritting my teeths to see the WEDDING!! Of course, if it isn't so apparent, I'm mad at Arain but Astro View arrived on my doorsteps a few days ago, and I felt compelled to flip through the pages. Brothers and Sisters Season 2 is airing this Jan! Ecstatic! So, yeah the anger must have fade a bit but its still there, no less.

I can't even begin to tell you how grateful I am that Catherine Hardwicke is NOT going to direct New Moon because I swear I will kill her myself if I had to see her cheerful perky optimist grins and shrieks. Erghh. Also, I heard from this girl at Polyvore that they are making New Moon a lot different from the book, which means there is going to be a lot of Edward in it. So, all those Team Edwards, you can start hyperventilate now. I am kinda pissed because Hello? Wayyyyy to make it obvious.




I am off now, as I will devour the moments of this fast connection and will not waste a single second of it.


Taaaaaaaaa (waterpakk?),
TIQA

The Best Answer is hidden in the Question.

I've decided that while I havent been posting for a while, I would entertain all you poor schmucks with a survey that everyone is posting on their blogs.








TEN HOW'S:


How did you get one of your scars?
what scars? *looks left* *looks right* seriously, what scars?


How did you celebrate your last birthday?
Sushi and Books and phone calls from Qistinaa :D



How are you feeling at this moment?
Overwhelmed.



How did your night go last night?
Pretty good.



How did you do in high school?
I'll let you know when I get through the last couple agonizing years.



How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Mi went to Fremantle, mi bought the shirt.



How often do you see ur best friend?
Every friggin second.



How much money did you spend last month?
Who's money? I'm not a spendthrift.



How old do you want to be when you get married?
When I'm old enough to have a sucessful career and actually have a desire to get married.


How old will you be at your next birthday?
3+4+10-7-2x2 = You do the maths.



NINE WHAT'S:

Your father's name?
Khairi Abdullah


What did you do last weekend?
Stayed at Ya's house.



What is the most important part of your life?
The moment I was born.


What would you rather be doing?
Sleepover at Hummmmmmms



What did you last cry over?
Why would you want to know? Haa. Quit being so nosey.



What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Books and Haziq.



What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
I don't look for it, when the right person comes, I'll like the person the way he is.



What are you worried about?
Will I be able to go to tuition tomorrow and always, Haziq.



What did you have for breakfast?
Sunny side up eggs with toast.



EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:


Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Have you?



Have you ever had your heartbroken?
I winced at the word because I believe hurt is not the equivalent of heartbroken.



Have you ever been to a club?
Who haven't? Right?



Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Define dumb and I'll give you the list.



Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Yeah and truth is, I'm lucky.



Have you ever had sex on the beach?
This is actually illegal in Malaysia. Not that I'd do it if it was legal. Come on, have some dignity. I have my pride (:



Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
If guys my age don't turn me on, what makes you think the youngsters will?



Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
I am going to ignore this question.



SEVEN WHO’S:


Who was the last person you saw?
Ba.



Who was the last person you texted?
Lily Alma Nadhirahhh.



Who was the last person you hungout with?
Deea.



Who was the last person to call you?
Lily Alma Nadhirahh.



Who did you last hug?
Qila.

Who is the last person who texted you?
Arain.



Who was the las person you said "i love you" to?
Haziq.


SIX WHERE’S:


Where does your best friend live?
the bestest of best friends -22, wangsa budi 11, wangsa melawati
others- Zoo View/Ukay Perdana. Ampang Jaya and Seksyen 6, Wangsa Maju.



Where did you last go?
How do I know for sure you're not a weirdo and will stalk me?.



Where did you last hang out?
How do you consider hanging out?



Where do you go to school?
See. Why do you want to know, weirdo?



Where is your favorite place to be?
my bed and Barnes and Nobles. Benci Nabil ;(



Where did you sleep last night?
My favourite place to be. the former.



FIVE DO’S/DOES:


Do you like someone right now?
Are you asking me this so I'd like you?



Do you think anyone likes you?
Do you like me? Haha.



Do you ever wish you were someone else?
What kind of question is this, you illiterate moron?



Do you know the muffin man?
This is not fair. Why does it always have to be the muffin man? I love the pie lady!



Does the future scare you?
Do you like to poo?



FOUR WHY’S:


Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
because they actually care.



Why did you get a myspace?
I'm not going to tell you just so you can stalk me, dumbass.



Why did your parents give you the name you have?
Ok. This has got to stop. What are you? getting to know me better? Creepyyyy.


Why are you doing this survey?
I am a nice person and no matter how weird and freaky you are, I'll always have time for you.



THREE IF’S:


If you could have one super power what would it be?
To have more super powers.



If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
Have you not learn the lesson yet?



If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
I know why you're asking this. Its so I'd say you. Well, get use to dissapointment.



TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:


Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
If I laugh, I won't stop so I'm holding back the laughter thats about to burst.



Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
Hah, what? You're too bald? Well, a quote from She's The Man "Chicks dig it. Rawrrr"



ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?
Is this a trick question?



Yeehaw Waterpak,
TIQA

Wow. It Must Be A Convention for Hypocrites.

Hello again, it’s you and me, kalways like it used to be, sippin' wine, killing time, trying to solve life’s mysteries. How’s your life, it’s been a while, God it’s good to see you smile. (yes, Bonjovi gets to me sometimes) Its just like when u don't know how to express your feelings and then you listen to this one song and it actually explains how you feel perfectly, right? Well. Story of my life. (Gahh, Owen Armstrong!) If it isn't so apparent, you'd notice that I'll mostly add some some from someone someone in my posts and its not plagiarism, I tell you. I just have no better idea of saying and who needs one when you already have the perfect way? Why go and try? Why even bother? Yes. Life, not as easy as it seem. Spent the weekend away. A good change from the usual. He doesnt want to admit it, but I know my little brother misses me. I can tell by the glimmer spark of hope in his eyes when he came down and saw me. Ok, now I'm exaggerating. I have tons of things to share but I'm not the kind of person to pour out every detail (clothes, conversations, places) of her day on her blog. So yeah, thats about it.

Also, since I have what seems like a gazillion hours to daydream, it got me thinking. Remember those quizzes I took and I got Bella from Twilight? And remember how I always seem to be frustrated? Well, my epiphany is that if I hate her, does that mean I hate myself too? Its not that I'm saying I believe every single thing with quizzes but of course, there must be some truth in it right? I highly doubt that. Hating myself, that is. Also, I don't hate Bella. I just sometimes wish I could be a bit stronger minded with extra confidence. I wish I'm Lizzie Bennett who stands up for her own right and doesn't let anyone contradicts her. The greatest feminist of all time. Which brings us to Bella. She's too dependent on others, I think? (see, I'm always questioning my thoughts) I like her on New Moon best because she at least tried to forget and she didnt manage but thats okay. Life is an asshole, sometimes. I get that. But if you don't at least try, then whats the point anyway? Another epiphany I came to discover is that every second is an ending and a beginning. Okay, so this might not be original. It is still true, nevertheless. Every second is a beginning, a climax and an ending for each stories in our life. The idea of comparing book to life pretty much appeals to me. The best reason I can come up with is that since I usually get enthusiastic -sometimes, over- about books, if I imagine life as one, I might actually be thrilled to go through mine. Also, books makes me more powerful. Like its the only thing I believe in and I hold on to it because its what defines who I am and not just jumping on the bandwagon like I know most people do. I don't do it just because its 'IN'. It's passion and its always going to be there for me if and when I fall down, darkness surrounding. The only light I'll get, the only comfort I'll get is from the only thing I held on to.

Life is a never ending book. And you know what? I love my book (forgive the pun)


Yours truly is cracking her brain trying to find an idea for a set on Polyvore. *sigh* I'm thinking about doing a set like Penelope's ending but the whole concept can't be delivered to my brain.*double sigh* Must be something wrong with the spinal cord. Photographic memory, not always a great thing. *triple sigh*

One last final huge *SIGH*

Gottarun Waterpak,
TIQA

To The One And Only, Wonderful Friend,

Fatin,

My internet connection was being an ass which is why you find me offline on Windows Live and take note ; not because I was insulted by what you posted and truth is, I'm pretty much flattered that you wrote one whole post about me. Even making it public about our love-hate relationship. Now, isnt that proof enough to show how much you absolutely love me? I am also so deeply touched that you have decided to sacrifice for me. Seriously, I am. But, lets leave that part behind (it's so obvious I can't even believe I need to say it)


Your plan to murder me as you say and I quote"gruesomely" is kind of disgusting to know --disgusting as in it makes you want to gag, not the disgusting as in it gives you goosebumps and shivers-- but it would never top my plan to sneak into your room and slit your throat because you know it as much as I do, that plan is priceless. It's the best murder plot ever since ..*memory check* well, ever since EVER!


I know how true our friendship is even tho our conversation mostly consist of us declaring our hatred towards each other. By the way, I don't need to look for the definiton of friend to know that your picture would be next to it (In Perfect You, they actually said something like this. HAHA Saja nak kasi jealous) plus to top it all, I ada Kamus Dewan 3rd Edition je? So, its not like I can even go and check the dictionary. Lol *that stands for Laugh out loud, not Lots of love. Just In case ;p*

With all my love,
your amazing friend,
TIQA




p/s ; Did you notice that I took time and wrote your name in colourful pink tones? I am so thoughtful to write it with Barbie's favourite colour. It is to show how it doesn't affect our friendship when I found out about your addiction to Barbie :D

I'll be saving you

"Check it out. I got a new name tag today." He unclipped it and held it toward me.

I looked at it. "A. GUY."


He grinned. "Someone actually asked me what the A stood for," he said, his hand brushing mine as he took the tag back, sliding it into his pocket. "I said Larry."

SWOON, Right!



TIQA doesn't feel like Waterpak

Because When Life Dissapoints

you know that feeling when you feel out of breath, your heart beats erratically, you feel like you'll faint,you are screaming at the top of your lungs, the earth suddenly fails to move, life is finally turning out the way it should be and you dare not to blink because you're afraid the bubble just might burst and then reality will hit?

I am having the feeling right now

and I dare say so myself,


IT'S SCARY AND AMAZING!!




p/s; My brother and his friends just got back from Prom (gasp right? I felt like I could finally see the light when I first found out) and they are telling me all the gory detail as if I am so excited about it I'd take notes.


I have to go, since my act to not look scared when they told me about the face that will appear on the window, whispering to me "Come Back, Come Back" with a long hair and a scar on her-or was it his- forehead didn't really worked and I am quite terrified.

Now they are having an effect on me

FIGURES.

I Will Not Hold You Back

It wasn’t a victory after all.
It wasn’t an echo after all.
It was as real, as a week ago –
I just hadn’t had the time to notice.
And thus I fell again,
As I always will;
Forever and ever.

~ayvia

I know, that the best thing for me right now is to NOT take the PMR result. Its one thing to be self conscious and its another when everyone surrounds you the moment your dreams, your expectations, your hopes shattered to the ground. Everything matters. Your expression, your voice. I am not good at pretending as I am at hiding which is why I find NOT taking the result a better option than to take it. And its not like that big of a deal because I didn't even went to take my UPSR's and only to find out about it 3 days after the result was out. It can be a bit frustrating, of course especially when you have a cousin who asks you about it every 5 minutes. Seriously. Wake up. "Tiqa, how many A?" walk to the toilet. "Tiqa, how's your UPSR?" In the shower. "Tiqa, who's going to tell you your result?" Out of the shower. "Hi! How many A?" Walk to the kitchen. "Is your result out yet?" Munchs on sandwich. "TIQA!! Do you want to know what you'll get?" (you get the point right?) and this is also the cousin who is so confident that I will gain 8A's. I am not really afraid of my hopes to crash but I am more afraid of dissapointing others. Because I feel like I have dissapointed so many in these past 3 years what with my terrible exam result and my un-activeness on corriculum activities. I know I am a failure. A constant failure.


but I have to overcome these fears and let the worst take me in because if you know where you are standing, things will only get better right?

After all, the best way out is always through.






We'll fall in Waterpak,

TIQA

just a quick post

• Catherine Hardwicke is NOT going to direct New Moon
• Tom Sturridge is unbelievably amazing
• Ulliel is the only reason to live

Lalalala. I have no idea why I am posting this.

TIQA

48 hours..

..till the Happiest Day In My Life for now.


I am so excited that I am starting to get a bit paranoid. What if it got lost in mail? What if the postman came and no one was home? *that's the use of mailbox. Ok. ignore that* what if it was raining and the books get soaked? What if the postman got the wrong adress? What if.. I just shut up and wait till the day comes.




I was browsing through Amazon's web and guess what? They reduced the price of Lock and Key from $18.99 to $12.44. Hmm, i wonder if my dad would let me buy it? *thinking, thinking.* Nahh. I'll just buy it here -- but I can't seem to find a nice copy -- or wait till it comes out in paperback.


updated : I found out from Sarah's blog that the paperback is coming out on May and it has a new cover! Gasp(-ard. Ha ha. Takda kerja). I love it but Along For the Ride will be my all-time favourite for now. Which one is nicer for you? The hardcover (pink) or the paperback (green)




I am now on Kinokuniya's web searching for books. Smart Boys and Fast Girls (SBFG) is available at the store. I still do not like Malaysias bookstores. Why can't we have Barnes and Nobles here? And Borders, create a Malaysia website, please!



SBFG only has like 178 pages. I know, not worth buying especially online but who gives a damn. I've been wanting to read the book since June.



I want to go to the MPH Book Carnival at Times Convention Centre but my dad said its too far, my brother is on bed-rest and I just went to MPH Clearanse Sale on October. Devastated, I am.


I am sensing that I should put all these YA books down and start reading Form 4 books. heard it will be tough. Why can't I have great self determination? I feel like giving up every minute. Isn't that dramatic?

p/s; people keep pointing it out for me "Isn't your blog supposed to be Dramatic instead of Dramatis?" I know, people. I just wanted to add some Malay twist in it. Let it rest.

p/p/s; I knew it. Emile Hirsch recommended Kristen Stewart to Catharine Hardwicke which is why she got the role. I knew there is some Emile factor in this.


Waterrrrrpak,
TIQA

Careful, Ice queen. You're melting

CHANEL IMAN•

Cooking tips: I'm learning. But I don't know how to cook Thanksgiving food yet. I know how to cook spaghetti Bolognese, pizza, and tacos — stuff that everybody knows how to cook.LIYA KEBEDE•

Cooking tips: I'm not a good cook. I don't cook a lot. But I like food, so it's kind of a weird thing. See, I don't do eggnog.

Go Chanel! Go Kebede! *awkward*

I've just noticed that Edward Cullen wears the Risky Business shades. Hah. Tom Cruise must be proud. I have to stop talking about Twilight. Just you wait, 2 more days and all you can hear from me is Kate and Will! I just know I will fall in love with them even without reading the book yet.

Did I mentioned that my piano teacher and I are finally getting along? We are! He taught me how to understand the theories easier and he let me pick a new song. Oooh, I passed the song I've been playing for two months already. And and, It's only been a week since I got a new song and I am now playing both hands!! This is good progress, as I usually only get to play both hands after three weeks. I asked him if he has the sheets for My Way by Frank Sinatra because I know my brother loves the song ( see how thoughtful I am? ) but he said he just gave it to someone else. So I got Endless Love by Lionel Richie instead. The notes are kind of hard to read because there are for the piano and the vocal. I had to do both, in tandem. It was fun? I am finally getting a grip on this piano stuffs. However, I do not feel like playing the piano every god damn time. It wears me out sometimes. But I aim to be optimistic. This is a personal achievement, you hear me? PERSONAL ACHIEVEMENT!

I am downstairs and I can hear my dad snoring from the tv room (which is by the way, upstairs).

Oh, last Wednesday, I woke up only to find my room like a pig-sty. This is what happens when my sister runs out of clothes to wear, or everything she wears makes her look fat. I don't know what happened to me while I slept, maybe I got banged on the wall but I woke up feeling like hmm.. Spring Cleaning! Only it is more like wardrobe cleaning? Ha ha. I took out all the clothes from my wardrobe and decided to fold it up nicely, so it won't look as messy as it was. It was very nostalgic. i found 5 out of 7 (I wonder where the other two went? maybe to charity) of my flower girl dresses. --Yes, I've been a flower girl for 7 times. I suspect my mom has something to do with it, you know maybe handing out cards to strangers because I swear, of all the 7 weddings I've been a flower girl, only 3 weddings do I actually know the bride / the groom. And after the 3rd wedding, I told my mom that was it. No more. But one day she came back making her sad puppy face asking me for a favor. She even bribed me with the Baby-G watch. I can't believe how easy I can be bought. I told her, this is the last. And for the next 3 weddings, she keep saying 'last one. last one' but it finally ended when she realised that no one wants me to be a flower girl anymore, considering how tall I am for my age. *shit, I got distracted again didn't I? Pergh.*-- I also came across this pants that both Amal and I had when we were small. Aunty Hana and my mom bought it together so they had us wear it everytime we go out together. I only get to wear it for about a year? before I outgrown them. Also, I still fit in my 11 years old jeans! I know right!! Of course it isn't as loose as once I wore it, but you know lose some fat on my thighs, and I am ready to goooo. I am now 54 kg. Yes, yes! 2 more kg till I reach my minimum normal weight according to the BMI.


I can't believe I am telling you all this. Sigh.

Goodbye, go die. HAHA

Waterpak,
TIQA

Hell-O, Jackie-O

I can't wait to go to the Year End Sale. I know, I know what you guys might be thinking. Shopping? Atiqah? Now, thats an odd collobaration. But do not blame me. Blame my sister for always buying magazines and Natasha Kraal for being such a good editor-in-chief. So, things I want to buy -- besides books, of course -- is cardigans in all colour. Since that is asking for the moon, i would settle for 3. that's not asking too much, is it? Especially since my sister now, owns 5 skinny jeans. Cobalt Blue, Emerald Green, Egg Yellow, White, Black. And the other reason I am looking forward for this sale is that I can finally get my hands on a sequined top that I've been waiting all year for. I have one particular top in mind, I found it with liyy the other day but since I get guilty spending money, I will spend my dad's instead. HAHA. There is just something with sequined tops that makes me green with envy whenever I see someone wearing it. Seriously. I was browsing through Bazaar's pages when i saw this model wearing the prettiest sequined dress I've seen and I actually have an urge to rip off the page. And well, that's the only thing I want to buy. However, i'm willing to bet that when I do go the Sale, I will end up buying something else entirely. Cross your fingers because I really want the sequined top :)

I have to take care of my little brother since he just got out from hospital and he needs someone to be there for him. He can't move that much, which means total agony for me. Anyway, while my brother was playing his new PSP, my mind wandered off and suddenly, AHAH! I figure out how my perfect date would go. And just stretching here; it's a perfect date, not perfect first date because everyone knows a first date must be something where u can get to know each other better. Anyway, my perfect date would be eating sushi at Sakae (i loveeee that place) and my date would be playing his PSP --- or anything that is 'IN' at the moment --- and I would be reading my book -- because a book never gets old -- and we won't even be talking because after all, expression speaks louder than words, right? HAHA. I know this might sound a bit stupid and odd and so not romantic but I kind of like it. I'm weird, whats your point?

You don't know. The thought of moving on cross my mind every single damn day. I just choose to ignore it. I'd rather be haunted by the thought of you leaving than spending the rest of my life knowing I left you.


who wants to go to Waterpak,
TIQA

Let Loose, Break Free

In case you are those kind of people who are very slow, I will tell you what my mood is now. I am bored. Is that even considered a mood? Oh well. I have no parental guidance in my house so yeah. partaayy! NOT. My siblings, yeahh. Qiba went to futsal, I think. That is his idea of party. Qila went out celebrating her freedom after having her last paper today, and I am here, under the table (I'm scared someone might break in since there's no guys at home) searching about Emile Hirsch. No, I do not have a crush on him. While my lovely siblings went out to play, I am stucked in the house reading cookbooks trying to figure out how to make homemade icecream jelly since I can't bake (the oven broke down) and calling them reminding about the curfew. Not that they actually listen to me. Well, someone has to be responsible right?


Yours truly is making the dictionary her new bestfriend. Seriously. I even took Jane Austen's book and searched for all the words I don't quite know the meaning of. Isn't it strange that you don't know the word but you get the sentence? Words. How fascinating they can be. I've finished my face cleanser. Of all times they can run out, it had to be now. Especially since my dad is not around. They just like to watch me suffer right? It's their favourite pasttime. And if that's not enough I woke up with one massive pimple on my forehead. and here I am, thinkin that my blackspots are finally fading away. Due to desperation, I decided to use the oldest trick in the book. Beauty book, that is. I used toothpaste. It actually worked! The pimple didn't exactly dissapear but it has potential. I was so happy that it worked, I smothered toothpaste all over my face like a face mask thinking it would help with the blackspots too. Boy, was I wrong! Not only didn't it help, it also made my face so sticky, I had to use my facial scrub. I think the only reason I am pampering my skin is because I am too bored. Trust me. A giant enormous pimple could grow on my nose and I wouldn't give a damn if it's on a school day.

I feel like shit. Ha ha. I read about the terms of shit in the newspaper the other day. That was fun. I love that part of the newspaper.

Maybe its just me, but I don't seem to like guys who take their own picture. Isn't that so.. I don't know. Does the word VAIN ring a bell? Probably some has good looks and well, you can't just ignore good looks but I have this thing for ignorant guys who don't give a damn that he is beautiful. A guy who couldn't care less about his hair or his shirt. They turn me on :0


I am off now, listening to Belle & Sebastian. SHIT. Cohn and Levithan is having a huge influence on me.


let's go to Waterpak,
TIQA

I just had to.

a never ending life.

All this while, I talk about stupid mindless things without even payin visit to other people's blog. I am so selfish. There is no good explanation except that I am an absolute jerk. I'm sorry. Especially to those people who linked me and I said i'd link them back, but I didn't. Sorry. I promise I will though, when? I don't know. I am so lazy, its unhealthy.

Mila tagged me! thanks :) I'll do the tag next time tho because I have no idea where the camera is right now. That is the only excuse I can come up to. Sorry. Urgh, I repulse myself.


Waterpak,
TIQA

Hand over the Kleenex.

Fatin just told me one disturbing fact. The postman usually comes in the afternoon instead of in the morning. And here I am, getting worked up and perky about getting up early on the morning of 8th December to honor the arrival of the best book ever( I really have to stop worshiping this book). Except I don't think I'm going to be around on the 8th? Oh no, no no. Please let me be home. Have mercy. This is the only time I'm begging, since Jennifer A. broke up with John M. for the 1st time.Which has been so long, it feels like a century has passed. Kate Brown, we are like long lost sisters who are destinied to be in love with yummy, wonderful Will.

Aww MAN!

Damn! I so wanted to get Leah, except if she's not available then probably Rosalie. Whyy? Of all people. I think its probably because of the question about the guy I like. I can't help it if I have a thing for kind and hardworking guys right? Screw Edward for being a kind guy. Ergh. I knew I should've choosed Dangerous and complicated. Excuse myself while I go dig a hole and bury myself in for having the same taste as "ye old' sweet little Swan girl"

You are going to pay.

Chill, I'll give you the drill.

Hello. The previous post is what happens when you get so angry you just feel like bashing out on your blog even if that person won't even bother reading it. In fact, that person might not even know this wonderful blog even existed. Which is good, I think? because that person wouldn't be flattered for getting one whole post about her even if the post only consist of less than 10 lines. I am filled with anguish.

I am now writing with the arial font. Eventhough I know it won't be the arial font when I post it, I just like typing in arial font. It makes me a whole lot better. And that is the most important thing right? To be comfortable with yourself rather than impressing others. Arial font has a calming soothing feeling in it, it just makes me want to leap up, skip around the house and sing along to Sound of Musics's My Favourite Things. "Raindrops on roses and whiskers on..."

For your sake. Yes, I will stop.

I woke up at 930 am. Yes, you read it right. No typo there. Sing me praises. Applaude louder. That is a personal achievement, you hear? I don't really want to tell you what happens after I woke up because then you'll think low of me. As I am a very good person, (I stick to the rule Honesty is the best policy),I will tell you what I did after half past 9 (my little brother is having an influence on me. He keeps saying quarter to 3, Half past 8. It's very addictive.)

My father is doing a bad imitation of rap songs. All I did was complain when he sang his song which doesnt even really sound like one. And there he goes with his " Oh. You can sing your Mat-Salleh songs and I can't sing my songs. I am reminiscing my youth. and *insert rap songs(or he thinks it is)*" And they ask me, why I think my father has a mid-life crisis. Hello? It wouldnt be more obvious if a person stated that the sun is the source of light.

Ah, anyway. Back to the part on half past 9. Didn't you realize that I always get distracted? Sadly, yeah. I am easily distracted. So, all you have to do is pray that the Paddle Pop guy won't pass my house now or you'll never know what I did on half past 9. Ha ha. I am saying what I did like it was such a great mystery that you guys would be so anxious to know what is it already. You are going to be dissapointed. I woke up, went to the tv room (to check on the time on Astro's decoder) and then went straight back to my room and sleep. That only lasted for 10 minutes before I woke up again (another achievement) realising that I am no longer sleepy. Dissapointed aren't you? You can sigh, if you want. let out the breath you've been holding.

I have to go now. My father is babbling right this moment about how I always use the laptop at the last minute and never put it in his bag so he has to do that and he's sick of doing it because it's not like he was using it. I guess I'd pretend to be a nice daughter and put it in the bag, for his sake. Also, he's eating breakfast and I can just smell the alluring smell of sunny side up egg(i can't remember what its called) and the toast. Mmmm...

Waterpak,
TIQA

Answer me this.

Kalau memang bodoh, always stay bodoh, yeh?


No matter how much you study, no matter how smart you sound like, and the things you say is so intellegic but deep down, in your deepest core, beats a heart of a stupid person. Face it. Take it. Get the hell outta MY life.